jamie, sin ningún tipo de vergüenza

Professional triumphs and personal failures, because that’s how it always is.

I spent today watching season 6 of Buffy and finishing the layout on the first zine I’ve been involved with in years. I just made lo-fi photocopies, just to make a sort of mock up of the finished product, and even with the poor print quality, it looks pretty good. I feel very proud. The design isn’t perfect at all, but I’m happy with the collaboration and the content. I can’t quite believe how much I’ve learned from the experience, or how many weird magazine production terms I suddenly remember from back when my mother worked in publishing.

In other news: I’m sort of fighting the temptation to be passive aggressive or even just mean to someone who doesn’t really deserve it. Because I’m, you know, human. And sometimes I have feelings of disappointment or aggravation that don’t entirely make sense.

Just as I was starting to edge toward feeling really lonely and bummed out though, the mail came, and I got a letter from a friend. It made me feel a ton better, as tends to happen whenever I get anything in the mail that isn’t junk or a bill. It also turned out to be an incredibly thoughtful and nice letter, which is even better.

The NYC Feminist Zine Fest is on Saturday, and even though I’ve been running around like a nutbar trying to get ready for it, I feel especially pumped for it. And also slightly more confident that I’ll get my ‘perzine’ done in time.