SYSTEM OVERLOAD
Tuesday: my grandmother called to ask me to go to the hospital with her because she had a weird pain in her head and didn’t ‘feel like’ going by herself; I said I couldn’t and she guilt-tripped me for it; anxiety got significantly worse; then had to get dressed for and go on my anti-Valentine’s Platonic Date to the Bushwick Pita Palace and the Anti-Valentine’s Day Riot Grrrl Cover show (amount of work done: 0)
Wednesday: got bombarded early by text messages from like, EVERYONE IN THE WORLD, and this continued into the evening; had to abruptly stop responding to them so I could get ready to go on another platonic date; after dinner sort of went on a third, not really planned platonic date; enjoyed it immensely but got home much later than planned (amount of work done: 0)
RESULT: panicking needlessly about the mounting number of texts, tweets, e-mails, and other messages that I haven’t been answering because I’m trying to focus on 1) filing for a leave extension so I don’t get terminated from my program 2) turning in this review that’s already late 3) working on the zine that I’m collaborating on for the NYC Feminist Zine Fest. And also feeling agitated with myself for have a sudden and recent lapse in both time-management and boundary-setting skills.
OTHER: At least the last couple days were kind of fun, if less than productive. Valentine’s Day would have sucked without Stephanie and Cary; Babes in Toyland, Hole, and Mika Miko cover bands being awesome helped a lot too. And though yesterday was frustrating, more friend time did help me relax slightly. Sigh. *turns back to grindstone or whatever*
